Attractive Features?!

Have you ever wondered what makes people attractive to you?

A friend and me just got into that topic a few days back, talking about the things that we go for look-wise.
And I wondered: Of all the people I ever found attractive, how could it be they looked so very different from eachother? There were guys with long hair, short hair, no hair at all, tall ones, smaller ones, the big buffs as well as those who weren't much wider than me... I don't seem to have a definite "type"... or do I?


So what is it we look for?
My friend told me that one thing he has to analyze and approve is the shape of a girls nose. Silly little me, I started laughing at the oddity of this confession. I was very much convinced that my go-to-things were less insane.

Guess what, they're not.


I found myself staring at guys' necklines on an escalator. You know, the shape of the hairline on the neck? And my brain wasn't offering much but "om nom nom nom nom" - allthough I hadn't seen their faces yet. Weird, right?

A female friend of mine once told me that the shape of a guys calfs were hot. Equally weird in my eyes. I personally have never been interested in a guys legs before. :D

Another (male) friend has a thing for collarbones.



Then again, there are the things that seem rather normal to be attractive on males. Dominant cheekbones and a strong jawline. Lower arms with prominent vains. A toned back. An intense eye colour and a cheeky smile. And voices. Oooh yes, voices, deep dark voices with a slight rasping sound to it... Uhm... back to topic...
These things work for me, at least.
 I'm sure the next best person would create a very different list.

But then again, how come there seems to be a thing like "general beauty", making a person seem attractive to a lot of different people at once? I keep thinking about a class from a while back. The teacher was new and I swear, after just the first lecture, 80% of the females who had attended it had a giant crush on him. Including me. But here's the thing, the blushing and giggling girls left and right from me that day might have boyfriends I wouldn't even remotely be interested in if I met them.

This is so confusing. xD


Actually though, I think there -is- a solution for me. Because the similarity I DO find in most people I'd "approve" is this: They all had and have a strong character, they present themselves as confident, they are cheeky and funny. "Wait," you might say, "we were talking about looks!"
Well you know what? I believe confidence shows in your face. So here we go, it IS something pretty visible. And apparently I digg that look. ;)

(On a side note, I think this is what makes some people desirable even if they're - by normal standards - not visually attractive!)

Happy things, Part I

Sooo I've been told many-a-times that most of what I decide to write down is negative, mocking or just plain mean. It got as far as to people telling me I must have a very negative approach on everything, a cynic view on life itself and a sad, sad soul.


Guys...
No.


As odd as it may seem, I'm a very cheerfull person. I take bliss from the most normal, small things. There hasn't been a day in my life when I have not laughed out very loud at least once. And it's not just because I was laughing at somebodys misery. :P


So here is proof, a list of things that make me happy. In the spirit of christmas, if you will...

• Strawberries. Strawberries are the only proof I need to know that there, in fact, IS a mercyfull god. 
• Art. 
• falling asleep next to someone you love. 
• Freckles. 
• Picknicks. 
• Books. And anything under 500 Pages is NOT a real book. 
• Chalk. And Chalkboards. Wheee... 
• Steampunk. 
• Inside-beautiful people. Well, outside-beautiful ones too but those are only fun to look at. 
• Scooby Doo! 
• Funny people. There should be more actually funny people. 
• Treats. 
• The kind of clothes one isn't really supposed to wear outside on a normal day... You know... Like pettycoats and hooded capes and all that. 
• Whispers. 
• Jumping into puddles. 
• Hot Chocolate. 
• Coffee. With a LOT of cream. 
• Thunderstorms. 
• Autumn. 
• making people smile. 
• being overly childish every now and then. 
• Crafting. Manual work. 
• Audio Books. 
• The voice of David Draiman. Om nom nom. 
• Voices in general. Languages. Dialects. TALK to me people. :D 
• Real kids. The kind that still plays outside and comes home with clothes so dirty they get stiff. 
• Brothers cooking skills. Madly. 
• Texas hold'em. 
• the very first 5 seconds after lying down on a bed with fresh sheets. 
• being in a disgustingly good mood without any apparent reason. 
• Trip Hop 
• XL-Sweaters. Preferredly those belonging to other people. 
• Couple pictures. I could plaster my room with couple pics. Oh wait, I did that some time back... 
• Things that look good when set on fire. 
• DIY 
• those little momentswhen you're nothing but completely ok with the universe. 
• Dr. House. 
• Getting to know new people. I might only like very few of those, but it's still fun to check people out... 
• the little Bit falling asleep on my back. 
• Music that screams at me.

Weird World we live in, Part III

Gay marriage.

Yes.

I'm not going to talk about the thing itself because a) I'm in a horrible rush and b) what the hell do I care? Let folks be happy. Let them have a big, big party. For the heck of it. I'm not particularely anti or pro.


But I just had an epiphany out of freaking nowhere and had to share it haha.
The catholic church tells us that gay marriage isn't right and can thereby not be done or God will smite us all dead or some such bullshit. So no equal rights and bla bla bla.

Uhm...

Hey, Pope, I'm really sorry to tell you, but your club didn't INVENT marriage. o.O People bonded for life waaaay before you came along.*
And since as far as I know, state and church are still two different things, who the fuck are you to say that YOUR kind of marriage is the only kind that should be accepted by the laws of the STATE?


I'm probably getting something terribly wrong, esp. since I never really thought the whole thing through, but this thought is going to be stuck in my head untill somebody explains it all to me.

As of right now, this is not even remotely structured. Maybe I'll get back to it later. Probably not though.


(*Joseph and Maria were married, right? They had to have been right? Otherwise, wouldn't Maria have been in big, BIG trouble? Oh wait, yeah, the immaculate conception thing... ... ...
Wait a minute, I feel another epiphany coming my way.......................... xD)


With that, I'm off to work.
I'll just let YOU deal with the mayhem of this entry.
Haha.

It's a weird world we live in, Part II

Just a few minutes ago, while waiting for my train amongst saturday nights drunk leftovers walking past, I found the following campaign on a screen:

Youth against AIDS.
Don't let HIV ruin your dreams.

Use condoms.


It kinda got me thinking. And I know I'm probably making a lot of people hate me with this... But wouldn't the appropriate way to stay healthy of all sorts of STDs in the first place to... not fuck around as much?
I am NOT saying that everybody who ever got HIV is or was a slut, hell no.
But we all agree that jumping from one bed into the other is preeeeetty much exposing you to a much much higher risk, right?


Here's the ugly truth, I'm extremely conservative when it comes to relationships and all that. I honestly believe that to enjoy some nookie, you should be a couple. For more than a few hours.

GET TO FREAKING KNOW EACHOTHER FIRST!

(Here's the thing. I joke about jumping this and that celebrity a LOT. I say things like "Yeah I'd totally do Hugh Jackman!" just because he's really hot. But you know what? I wouldn't. Because I don't know the guy. It's as simple as that.)


I do NOT get the concept of going out with the fixed plan to get laid by pretty much anyone. At all. It's alien to me.
(Or, for that matter, not plan it but end up going home with a person just because he/she is willing. That's doggie behaviour: "The food is here so I'm just gonna eat it, no matter if I'm hungry or not. Because food is fun, that's why.")
If it's your thing and you want to do it, fine.
But if you want to be all grown up about your sex life, be grown up enough about your health too. This is not even all about morals!
Campaigns like the one I mentioned are made for a reason. Which leads me to another part I don't get, aren't we all smart enough and educated enough to know about proper protection? I mean, really, can a western world teen manage to not know about it? Even the obnoxious teen magazine BRAVO tells you all about it.

So HOW is it they still have to remind everyone?


And if you were too drunk to stop yourself from banging that stranger AND too drunk to know what you're doing, well, maybe you're too immature to have either sex or booze. And especially both at the same time.
And do NOT tell me "It just happens." Here's a hint: IT DOESN'T. It takes a bunch of decision by at least two grown up people, there are things you have to in order to get going, NONE of these things JUST HAPPEN.
I've even heard this: "I had no condoms at home/with me." Jesus Christ. Again, the solution is SO easy: No condoms? DON'T FUCK!

Also, to quote a fun thing I read a while back so we don't end this in an all too somber way:
"If you go home with somebody and they don't own any books - don't fuck with them."

It's a weird world we live in, Part I

Dear charity organisations,
with all the money you're spending on the custom adress stickers and fake handmade bracelets and glossy pictures of happy kids and postcards you're sending me and 30.000 other folks in my town...

...you could easily save 300 kids, feed 30 villages and breed a full herd of siberian tigers.

Thank you.



To be updated with other things that I don't get.

Pancake Massacre...

When it feels like life is falling apart around you, you know what might have the power to pick you up?

Right, pancakes.



Now imagine you just moved, never owned a pan yourself before and have to make due with an old leftover one.
Long story short, what was ment to be a soothing morning activity turned into a nightmare of poor pancakes sticking badly and being ripped to shreds in the end.

Sad, sad story.
Gladly, my trusty discount store sells pans next week. Coincidence that they happen to sell the things that I need JUST when I need them? Apparently not. I've just been told that I'm pretty much James Bond and they are my Q. It's amazing to have insane friends. :)


If you think this entry was incredible random, all over the place and lacking a clear stream of consciousness, you may be right.

Random things...

1. City or Village?
   I prefer a nice balance. I want to be able to look far and look at mostly green instead of gray, but being able to walk to any larger urban collective makes me feel... civilized.
   
   
2. Most awesome movie villain?
   THE JOKER! Both played by Jack Nicholson AND Heath Ledger! ( And I dare to mention the Riddler. Come on. He IS awesome...)
   
   
3. Favorite Disney movie hero?
   "The Beast" after his witchy switchy change back into a human. Yum.
   
   
4. Favorite dish?
   Baked potatoes. Pretty much nothing beats that. *nods*
   
   
5. What fantasy being would you rather be?
   First impulse: ZOMBIE!!! But nah... I'd rather be a kickass vampire. One from back when they didn't sparkle. Then I could either date Louis or Damon. Or both. Fuck morals, haha.
   
   
6. Favorite Superhero?
   It has always been Batman. But lately, my libido tells me Thor is doing a good job at saving the world too... so confusing!! xD
   
   
7. First bad, bad crush?
   8^th grade. Tall, dark, handsome dude. Nowadays he's not that handsome anymore. At all. It's weird.
   
   
8. Drink of choice?
   Coffeeeeeeeyumyumyumyumyum.
   
   
9. Romantic date or fun night out?
   Romance tends to get awkward pretty quick so I'd go with the fun night out.
   
   
10. Favorite game?
    Poker. Or a match of Carcassonne with my mom. It aaaaalways brings out the worst in us. xD
    
    
11. Best actor ever?
    Phew, a hard one. Anthony friggin Hopkins has to be among the top 10. Thinking hard, all the others I like are pretty much in the top 10 because they are hot as hell. I feel shallow. xD
    
    
12. Vacation time! Party hard at a beach or explore the countryside?
    Countryside. Definitely. Tried the beach party approach. Too many idiots.
    
    
13. Your favorite pair of socks?
    Oh that is SO the wrong question for me... Either my black star-patterned pair or my black and purple striped ones.
    
    
14.  Your best friends?
    I'd rather not label my buddies. Some people have grown dear to me, some dearer than others. And guess what, some of them don't even know that. It's not like I'd walk up to them and say “Hey, by the way, I really really enjoy your company. Let's to grab a beer.” Not my style. In order to do that, I'd have to be MAJOR drunk and I don't do drunk so sorry guys, you'll just have to guess if I like you or not hahahahahha.
    
    
15. Last thing you bought?
    Food. And the most amazing piece of piercing jewellery..... that I cannot wear. -___________- Can't give it back, have to hope somebody buys it from me. Very sad now. :(
    
    
16. Snowball match or building a snowman?
    I won't flake on a good snow fight with friends, but I throw like a girl and tend to be drenched and freezing after 5 minutes. So I'd rather build a friggin snow bunny.
    
    
17. Places you want to see?
    The caribbean basically. Asia. The UK. Canada. The US of A. Rome, again. Moscow. Prague. I haven't been around much yet so...
    
    
18. Your signature dish?
    Not a dish at that but my chocolate cake is quite famous.
    
    
19. Your #1 pet peeve?
    People who try to explain the world to me. I mean, I ask a LOT of questions about pretty much everything and I AM curious. But seriously, if you want to explain to ME, a digital artist with almost a decade of experience, that working on a full-size image is way way better than on a low-res-version (and if you dare to add a parental smirk too), I might end up ripping you to shreds.
    
    
20. Flowers?
    Yes please. Orchids.
    
    
21. Your obsession?
    Nail Polish, I'm afraid...
    
    
22. Best place to eat?
    Mom-in-laws kitchen haha. World class chef, I swear! :P
    
    
23. Favorite book?
    Lord of the rings, hands down.
    
    
24. Random activity you and your friends did?
    The last outing to the zoo was fun. :D
    
    
25. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
    I... actually don't recall doing it. It was before my morning coffee so......
    
    
26. Favorite planet?
    Well... earth feels pretty ok-ish nowadays...
    
    
27. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
    No idea. Don't have it with me. Probably my mom, boss or boyfriend. They are the only people actually calling me. ^^
    
    
28. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
    Bibi blocksbergs “Hex hex” sound. xD
    
    
29. What shirt are you wearing?
    It's grey and it features a mouse-y thingie in a dress and with an umbrella and it says “Look how pretty a rainy day could be” and I am absolutely not kidding right now.
    
    
30. Do you "label" yourself?
    As awesome? Always. Wait, what?
    
    
31. What were you doing at midnight last night?
    Play Minecraft hahahahahahahahahahhaha.
    
    
32. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
    “Yes *smileyface* or something likewise.
    
    
33. Where is your letter box?
    Don't get me started, I keep not finding it. No joke. New place. 170+ letter boxes. Not funny.
    
    
34. What's a word that you say a lot?
    I have some go-to-words every now and then, especially when agitated. I don't notice them, other do.
    
    
35. Who told you he/she loved you last?
    The only guy who's in question. :D
    
    
36. Last furry thing you touched?
    Cats.
    
    
37. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
    Caffeeine ._. And actual medical drugs.
    
    
38. Favorite age you have been so far?
    21 was pretty friggin awesome.
    
    
39. Your worst enemy?
    Whoever invented mosquitos.
    
    
40. What is your current desk top picture?
    A “gothified” version of Beauty and the Beast. xD
    
    
41. What was the last thing you said to someone?
    I talked to the cats like a well-mannered crazy cat-lady should.
    
    
42. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you take?
    Uh-oh... I might end up choosing to fly and then rob a bank & fly away with a 1 mill. bucks bounty...
    
    
43. Do you like someone?
    Actually... uhm, ya?
    
    
44. The last song you listened to?
    Alex Clare (?) - Too close. Love it.
    
    
45. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be?
    Hmmmmm... I'm confusingly at peace with the people who actually recently have been in my life over the last few weeks. I would, however, like to throw a very disapproving look at a special professor right now without fearing for consequences. ^__^

Anything else? Ask me. xD

What the hell is this blog all about?

 This blog was created in june 12. Ever since then...
...nothing happened.

But HERE we are. My first entry. Whee!

...why, for heavens sake? WHY?
I didn't plan to start blogging. Because what the hell, that's why. On the other hand, it always seemed like a fun thing to do. So... why not try it. I -think- my life is interesting enough to be in a blog, haha.
I had one other attempt on blogging, in german, and I made it to... 5 posts I think. But the concept was too limited and though it was fun, I just stopped at some point.

...and why now?
because... you see, before today, I had stuff happen. Lots of stuff. School, mostly, tons of papers that were all due WHILE I was moving out of my old place and into a brand new me-only one. Also, I was busy pushing people out of my life. Cause here's a not-so-secret secret about me: I'm extremely good at that. Me and people? Doesn't mix. But that's a completely different story...
As of today, I'm done moving. My papers are all sent. I'm actually on vacation in my most favorite (german) city, Berlin. And I'm done doing nothing for a change.
And since my laptop and tablet are 600 kilometers away and I can't push pixels around, I decided on starting this. For real this time.

Soooooo it's all new.
New semester.
New place.
New attempt on... things.
Well that's about it, but it's a start, right?

...so... what are you going to post about?
 Easy question: RANDOM THINGS! Wheeee!
I didn't want to limit myself on a topic. Soooo... this is going to be about...

•  Life, the universe, and everything.
• craft projects, as soon as I get back to that.
• (my) (digital) art. Art makes me happy!
  
• nail designs. Awwwww. I can't fucking help it!
• pictures, pictures, pictures.
• people (this is not going to end well!)
• and a lot of other things that run through my head. And believe me, there's a lot going on up there. Hell, I might even finally get stuff off my chest that has been bugging me forever. Like the concept of "self help books" about a better sex life! That's one to look forward to xD

...aaaand who the frick is supposed to read all of this?
Well uhm... uuh... I guess....... well a few loyal friends might check in every now and then. Plus, on this note, hi stalkers, this is the perfect way for you to catch up on my life after I mastered the arts of "facebook privacy". So these will lurk around here too I'm sure.
And then every once and again there's the poor person who stumbled upon this by accident.
If at some point I actually do get these "following" people, give me a holler. I might get some joy out of it.
(Disclaimer: Contains, ahem, explicit language and most probably every now and then 18+ content. Keep your kids away xD)

But let's face it, I'm doing this for my very own pleasure only. Because I'm an egocentric brat. :D
Plus, I just really, really like to write. I even like writing more than I like talking, and that sure means a lot.

What's with the blog title? Are you transgender or what?
Ok... So... apart from the rocksolid fact of girl parts, the question of my (psychological) gender has been heatedly discussed among friends and foes. I think we all agree that somewhere along the way, something went wrong. Put me in a room with more than 2 girls and somebody's going to die. Take me "shoe shopping" or any such thing and surely I'll die. Ask me about this seasons trends? I most probably won't know what the hell you're talking about. Fashion talk? You might as well be talking about physics, I won't friggin get a word! I still start giggling at the word "clutch".
I'd rather hang with the guys. They, as far as I know, consider me one of them. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

But there is, in fact, proof that somewhere in my brain, a girl is hiding. A girl that loves nail polish, Monter High Merchandise and shoes. And... ok that's about it. ;)


Uhm, so I am in fact NOT stuggling with my gender. If you are and you find this blog to be somewhat... offensive, I'm honestly sorry. I'm an offensive type of person, but this wasn't the point.

So... ya... Let's see where we go from here!